Well……this is just awkward…..

I debated back and forth for about a week whether or not to write this post or not. Technically, it’s nobody’s business -BUT -I've always been very open with my posts and I did something totally stupid so I guess I have to own up to it….

To what am I referring? Well, apparently one should wait a tad bit longer before gushing and oozing their declarations of love…..

Posted my undying devotion and happiness last Thursday….single by that Saturday afternoon…..

Awk…wa…rd…

I should have known it was a sign from the universe on Thursday when I tried to post and I kept getting an error message. That was its way of saying “shut your pie hole” I've never done anything like that before, I've always kept things between me and close friends etc, but there was something about J that made me so giddy (translation stupid) that I felt I just had to share.

The breakup was mutual and amicable enough-At least at the time. There was a bit of a conversation about trying to make things work this past week, but I was the only one interested in putting any honest effort into that.So don’t feel sad that I’m upset or anything….there were things I think on either side that we were not happy with. You know how it is when you first meet someone and you get that sort of film over your eyes and they walk around with a halo on their heads?

Yeah…..that fades….

And when the film comes off and you find yourself switching from “Omg you’re here again!!! “to “Omg, you’re here…again….” Then perhaps you need to reexamine.

I will concede that it went waaay to fast and I knew that, but you sort of just get sucked in and kind of go with the flow. I’m not going to disclose the reasons for the breakup, because that is both personal and not important, although I suppose if you’re a close friend you already know…..(seriously a very strange reason on his end)

So, I’m doing a.ok…I will go on dates again when I want to, but still happy with the way things are and my life as is. Still have a good job, good friends and family etc. Single or not, life is still good.

I've got my foster kitten thing happening and surprisingly it keeps a person very busy. They actually kind of are like little babies that need a lot of attention and looking after.

I wasn't wrong when I said my Jamie made my heart beat again…he totally did, and I’m grateful for that, so maybe that’s all that needed to come out of this particular relationship.

Live and learn, onward and upward and all those other clichés……