So….dating makes you fat….

        

When I first met London, I had successfully lost all the weight I needed too, pretty much kicked my sugar addiction and was happy with the number I saw on the scale.  Give or take a few pounds of course.

Then I started seriously dating London, and before I knew it, the pounds started creeping back in. Slowly though so you don’t notice at first. You just think…hmm, my belly looks a little puffy. Probably should not go out to eat so much. But when you’re dating, that seems to be one of the major activities. We’d go out for dinner and a movie and there would be fries and deep fried goodness, then candy and chocolate at the theater. It never occurred to me that the pounds were just hanging out in the background, waiting to pounce.

Nov 2013-I’m at my goal weight, I’m happy, I can fit into a size I never thought I’d be able to. I feel good, life is grand. I meet London and we have a few drinks and a few meals and…

Jan 2014-Okay so I’m up like 5-big deal. That’s just because of Christmas. Who doesn’t love Christmas goodies? As many chocolates as you can shove in your pie hole (mmmm pie), and sugar cookies, shortbread cookies, ginger molasses cookies, cakes, tarts….I’m sorry what was I talking about? Oh yeah-my pants don’t fit as well anymore. Whatever, I can still squeeeeze into them.

Mar 2014-Okay so it’s like another 5. I can clearly control my junk food intake, I just don’t want to, yeah that’s it. I don’t want to….damn, my pants don’t fit. Good thing I saved a pair that’s one size bigger! Ha-fooled you box of cookies- I’m in bigger pants now so I can continue to Godzilla you and your little friends

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Apr 2014-Okay, so maybe this is becoming a bad habit….the bigger pants are a bit snug and my tummy is a bit rounder. I really need to take care of this….oh what’s that London? You love me no matter how I look? Well crap…oooooh look -crème brule!!!

June 2014-Well I’ve gained a total of 15 pounds and although that might not seem like much to some people, to someone who struggled hard to lose 50, it’s not a good feeling. It makes you feel like you no longer have control of something you fought so hard to conquer. It is so EASY to just say, well 15 who cares, 25 is still smaller than I was and then boom you’re back where you were or heavier.

So, London and I have started to make changes together. Small ones at first, and then gradually work our way to where I was in November. I’m laying off the junk food-sugar and white flour etc and London has started running and cutting back on alcohol.

I’m currently on day 3 of my sugar detox and quite frankly, I’d like to kill someone. I have a headache, horrible cravings and my brain misses my chocolate…I’d forgotten what it was like to get back on the strict train. It’s going to be a long week but 3 down, 12 more to go!

Disclaimer: please understand that no one but me has shoveled sugary desserts down the hatch, but I maintain it is a lot harder with another person around